Finally

I received a call from my doctor's office.  They have finally scheduled my mri for my neck.  I hope everything goes much faster now.  I didn't fall asleep until after 5 am this morning.  my chin, neck and back (all the way down to my buttocks) felt numb...like when the dentist deadens your gums to work on your mouth.   when you touch it you can feel it, but it feels strange.  I'm feeling the same way tonight, except that my head is aching more today.    I'm holding on.

It's Friday, again.

I've been in pain all day...not just the normal headache, I'm also experiencing a lot of pain in my neck..to be more precise, if you could imagine that your back has a giant rubber band connecting your head to your shoulders, and then imagine how it would feel if that rubber band were to be stretched......to the point of fraying, almost ready to break....that is how I feel..and then on top, add the constant pain in my head...the constant noise of summer insects chirping in your brain.  THAT'S close to what I'm feeling.   Medically speaking, on a scale of 1 - 10 with 1 being the least and 10 being the most painful...I am at a 9.75.    I want relief, I need relief, but the medications are not working.  I just hope that I can fall asleep tonight and not be kept awake until 5am like yesterday (today?)

Today's update

Well, we went to the doctor for the results of all the testing done on Mr Man, he has plaque in his arteries, (heart disease), is still diabetic and is low on vitamin d.   He did not want to get his prescriptions filled, did not want to know that he is not fully healthy.  I had to make him see that he needed to take his medication in order to remain feeling healthy and to prevent heart attacks and kidney failure or blindness.  I let him know that I do not want to be a widow anytime soon. 

The prescriptions have been filled and he has taken his first dosage.  We'll see how that goes, but I  do believe that he will continue to take the medication.

Are we all gettng ill?

Just talked to my friend today, she has just been diagnosed with 2 aneurysms and is trying to get scheduled for surgery.

She and I both work at the same place.   Could it be possible that our work is causing this?  They told her high bp and stress can cause aneurysms.   Well,  our job can be high stress, especially since we have so many "goals" to reach and some of them are pretty much nearly impossible to achieve.

Oh, well, hope everyone else is okay.

Later

thoughts that ramble

It seems like my mind just wanders all over the place, but when I try to put in down, it never quite seems to come out right... I cannot type my thoughts at a pace to keep up with my brain.  my hands have gotten slower, I don't seem to be able to type as fast.  Ive noticed that when I try to play the games online, instead of getting faster, I seem to be slowing down.  Maybe I should mention that to my doctor tomorrow.

Took a shower, it hurt to wash my hair, but I did it anyway.

I just took my headache medicine...my head is pounding.  Hard to think, all I hear is constant sound in my head.   You know the sound that you hear at night in the country  when the cicadas are making their sound? that's what I hear all the time, sometimes loudly, sometimes softly.  When it's loud, I have to turn up the sound on the tv or I can't understand what is being said.  Maybe I need a hearing aid??   But then when the sound is soft, everything sounds so loud and makes my head hurt even more.   Don't know what to do.

I wonder what else is going to happen?  I try not to look for bad things to happen, but sometimes late at night, when I have trouble sleeping, I seem to have waking dreams and I don't like them.   All I can do is pray for serenity and ask that HIS will be done.

Another day

I managed to get a few hours sleep today.  I'm kind of scared/worried about tomorrow.  That is when I will find out about whatever is going on in my brain, be it an aneurysm or blockage or a narrowing of a vein.  Then I will know whether I can get on with my life and go back to work or find out if I'm going to need surgery.   I know, I'm probably making more out of this than it really is, but the not knowing is what is killing me.

Then I get a message that my hubby's blood sugar was a little high and that we REALLY  need to follow up on his possible heart problem.

And I won't know until tomorrow if I will be receiving a paycheck this week. x(

No Sleep

You know the old saying "There's no rest for the weary"?  Well, that's how I feel right now.   I'm still not able to sleep and now I'm hungry!!   Bah!!!   It is now 6:55am....hungry...need food. mmmmm, bacon and eggs....juice.  back later, need to eat!

Can't sleep

I've tried, but I'm unable to sleep. I'm in constant pain and meds do not help. I don't know yet what is causing it, will find out more on Wednesday. At that time my neurologist will be able to tell me if I will need surgery for an aneurysm, or if I will need treatment for problems with my neck.

Took my husband in for a general physical and because he's over 40, they decided to do an EKG. It was not normal. They detected an arrhythmia that may indicate blockage. They did a coronary calcium scan to see if there is blockage. He is scheduled to undergo a stress test on Friday and just maybe he'll be okay. We will get the results on the 29th of this month.

Just one more thing to stress about when I'm not supposed to be stressing. Hopefully my meds work and my blood pressure won't go up again.

I am so tired. I didn't sleep last night. Managed to take a nap during the day, but only for a couple of hours.

I'm hoping tomorrow (today) is better. I'm sorry this posting seems so negative, I'm usually very upbeat. I'm just tired of hurting.

If I ramble on, its because I'm bored. I can't concentrate on anything. There's nothing on the "boob tube" that interests me, if I try to knit or crochet I can't stay focused and my vision blurs or occasionally goes double. I've started and ripped out the same yarn so many times, by the time I finally make anything, it's going to look old.

I would like to get out of the house, but even a short trip to buy groceries, or see the doctors just wears me out.

Maybe letting all this out in the open will help, I know it won't heal me, but it may help to calm me down.